Subconscious Healing

Why Reiki is Considered “Evil”?

Some people ask, “Is Reiki something evil?” Often, such opinions arise from misunderstandings, bad experiences, or unrealistic expectations. Reiki itself is not “evil” — its effect depends on the intention, experience, and application. In this article, I will explain common misconceptions, when Reiki might feel negative, and what true Reiki healing looks like.

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Why Reiki is Considered “Evil”? Misunderstandings, Criticism, and Clarity

Not long ago, I received a call from a lady who had been recommended to me by another client. The first thing she asked was, “You do Reiki, right?”

I replied, “Yes, I also work with Reiki. But in your case, I would probably work with English spiritual healing.”

She responded with relief, “That’s good. I had very bad experiences with Reiki.”

I asked, “What exactly did you experience?”

She said, “I felt really bad afterward — and Reiki was to blame. Reiki is evil…”

“I see,” I said. “Hmm, maybe you had a Reiki practitioner who wasn’t sufficiently knowledgeable. Did they inform you that sometimes there can be an initial worsening?”

“Yes, they did,” she said. “But the intensity really surprised me. It felt as if all the traumas from my childhood were coming back.”

“Okay,” I responded. “Did you discuss your reaction with your Reiki practitioner afterward?”

“No,” she said. “But I knew for sure I would never go back there.”

“So, they don’t even know about your reaction?”

“No.”

“I understand… Unfortunately, it happens repeatedly that people have bad experiences with Reiki and then believe that Reiki is something bad.”

She countered, “But isn’t it? I felt awful right afterward.”

“That’s true,” I said. “But Reiki didn’t want to harm you. It simply brought a suppressed issue to the surface so that it could be seen and healed. We can often only recognize subconscious processes when they become visible. In your case, your subconscious brought old pain from your past to the surface after the session so that you could perceive it and work with it.”

I added, “I assume — since I don’t know your Reiki practitioner — that they weren’t aware of these dynamics. Many Reiki practitioners don’t understand these mechanisms or were never taught about them by their own teachers.”

To the reader:

Usually, most Reiki teachers teach that a session should be stopped immediately if a person feels bad during it. I also learned this at the beginning of my work with Reiki. Whenever one of my clients felt unwell during a session, I would conscientiously end it.

When my clients then asked why this might happen, I couldn’t give them a truly satisfying answer. I explained it to myself as a so-called initial worsening symptom, just as I had learned in my Reiki training.

But I was never fully convinced by this explanation. For a long time, I searched for a deeper answer to this question.

I only received answers when I met the English spiritual healer Malcolm Southwood and completed his training as a spiritual healer. He gave me concrete answers to many questions that had remained open from my previous Reiki training.

For the first time, I could really understand what happens in the subconscious and how to guide people through these processes mindfully and lovingly.

It always makes me somewhat sad when I hear cases where people become convinced afterward that Reiki is evil or even “from the devil.” It’s astonishing how such speculation has grown over time. In some cases, people even talk about alien implants or possession by spirits.

All of this is nonsense and spreads only because many Reiki practitioners cannot clearly explain certain phenomena that can occur during or after a Reiki session.

I am a perfect example. Trauma energies from my own childhood surfaced, which I had buried deep in my subconscious. However, this did not happen after receiving a Reiki session but after I was initiated into the Reiki Master level.

My Reiki teacher had warned me beforehand that some changes could occur afterward — but I had not expected such intensity. I felt really bad. I asked my teacher for help, but he could not support me in this situation because he wasn’t trained for it. Instead, he advised me to seek professional help.

So I turned to psychologists — but even there, I found no real support.

Only when I met Malcolm Southwood was I able to resolve my childhood traumas with his help. His work impressed me so much that I decided to train with him and work as a healer myself.

Today, my Reiki students learn how to handle it if one of their clients experiences a psychological crisis during a session.

What Causes Psychological Crises After a Reiki Initiation or Session?

During the energetic activation of the chakras and vibrations through a Reiki initiation, old wounds and suppressed traumas can surface in the consciousness. The same applies to a Reiki session. This is not a problem in itself — provided it happens in a safe and protected environment under the guidance of an experienced Reiki practitioner/teacher.

Reiki sets a lot in motion, both consciously and unconsciously. This “movement” serves solely for healing and personal development and is therefore natural and wonderful. It only becomes problematic if someone experiences a psychological crisis after a Reiki initiation without an experienced teacher or other trained support by their side.

Some time ago, I heard the following story: A young woman received her Reiki Master level from a teacher who had conducted her entire Reiki training online through distant initiations. The young woman had not completed a single Reiki level beforehand, yet her “online Reiki teacher” advised her to complete all three levels on the same day — 1st, 2nd, and 3rd Reiki levels consecutively.

Shortly afterward, the newly minted master fell into a deep psychological hole. When she asked her teacher for help, the response was: “That’s your problem. You’re a Reiki master now…”

Every responsible Reiki teacher would be horrified by such an approach. It is absolutely negligent. The individual Reiki levels are deliberately spaced over a longer period so that the human chakra system can gradually adjust to the new energy.

Additionally, a responsible teacher would inform students about the possibility of emotional overwhelm — meaning that feelings could arise that might surprise a Reiki beginner with their intensity, even long after the initiation. If problems occur, the teacher should support the student with advice and action. If the teacher cannot help, due to lack of training or being overwhelmed, they should have a network of psychologists, therapists, counselors, or other professionals to refer the student to in case of emergency.

Of course, it is not as if every Reiki beginner immediately experiences a psychological crisis after initiation. Such crises mostly occur in people with a certain pre-existing vulnerability. With the right guidance from the teacher, such a crisis is not a problem. It can be recognized, accompanied, and overcome. Learning Reiki remains a safe and wonderful experience, which I wholeheartedly recommend.

It is only when Reiki teachers or practitioners, out of ignorance of these mechanisms, fail to warn about potential risks and do not offer support after the seminar that situations arise in which a Reiki experience is mistakenly interpreted as “evil” or “negative.”

It is therefore up to us as teachers to be aware of this responsibility and provide proper guidance — to spare our students bad experiences and to prevent misunderstandings or misinterpretations of such personal crises in the future.

Marco Hennings – Biography

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Healing Lost Femininity – Returning to Inner Strength

Many women know the feeling of having lost their femininity—due to societal pressure, past wounds, or internal blockages. Lost femininity can leave deep marks and affect self-worth, relationships, and joy in life. In this article, you will learn how to rediscover your inner strength, heal old wounds, and cultivate a loving connection to your own femininity.

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It is truly remarkable how many different faces of human suffering a healer encounters in their practice over the years. The following case is about Tina (name changed). Tina was 35 years old and came to see me because she struggled deeply with her self-worth.

She told me that she had been in a relationship with the same partner for ten years, yet they had never been sexually intimate. They didn’t live together either, although his apartment was on the same floor—right next to hers.

They lived side by side, spent time together, but never shared a bed. Even simple forms of affection, such as hugging, were difficult for her—both giving and receiving.

Her partner didn’t seem to mind, but Tina wished things were different. There was something unknown that gnawed at her physical self-worth—something she couldn’t explain. She had experienced similar difficulties with previous partners as well.

As I continued to ask questions, Tina revealed that she had undergone three cosmetic surgeries on her breasts in an attempt to resolve this inner discomfort.

Naturally, I glanced at her chest area. Usually, when women undergo breast surgery, it’s to enlarge them. In Tina’s case, however, I noticed the opposite.

Tina saw my confusion and laughed.

“No,” she said. “I had them reduced.”

I looked at her in surprise.
“Three times?”

“Yes,” she replied. “After each surgery, I felt like they could still be smaller…”

“Was there any medical reason for this?” I asked.

“No,” Tina answered. “Just… psychological, somehow.”

Since our conversation didn’t reveal any further clues about the root of her issue, I decided to begin the healing process and address her subconscious directly.

Using my usual approach, I guided Tina into a relaxed state of awareness through my voice and healing energy. After a few minutes, she entered an alpha state, and the first mental images began to arise.

Soon, she felt fear.

When I asked her why, she initially couldn’t give a clear answer.

So I instructed her subconscious to take her back to the very first moment in her life when she had experienced this feeling of fear.

After a short while, Tina saw herself as a 13- or 14-year-old girl.

I asked her where she was.

Her breathing became faster, her eyelids flickered, her face flushed, and a light sheen of sweat appeared on her forehead.

She was in her room, pacing back and forth—desperate, overwhelmed with fear and panic.

“I’m so scared… so terribly scared…” Tina said, tears running down her cheeks.

“What happened just before this?” I asked gently.

She had just gotten her first period.

And she believed she was going to die.

Her mother had never explained anything to her, so the young Tina had no idea that menstruation was a natural part of growing up.

After some time, the initial shock faded slightly. But she was convinced she must be seriously ill. She didn’t know what to do. She didn’t dare tell anyone—especially not her parents. The shame was overwhelming.

In her family, sexuality was a taboo subject—something that was never spoken about.

How terrible that must have been for her. It’s heartbreaking to imagine a child suffering like that, when a few loving words and simple explanations could have taken away all that fear.

Tina hid her stained underwear under her bed. When the bleeding finally stopped after about a week, she felt immense relief. A huge weight lifted off her shoulders. She desperately hoped it would never happen again.

A few days later, she was playing outside with other children. When she returned home, she saw her mother standing at the open window.

Her mother looked furious and shouted at her to come upstairs immediately.

Panic rose within Tina—she knew her secret had been discovered.

When she entered the apartment, everything erupted. Her father was there as well. Both parents yelled at her, calling her terrible names—words no child should ever hear from their own parents.

Tina wanted to disappear into the ground out of shame and fear.

The accusations seemed endless. As punishment, she was grounded. And afterward, her parents never spoke of the incident again.

Later, Tina gathered the courage to confide in a friend’s mother—a kind and caring woman. She explained everything to Tina and took away her fear and confusion.

Tina’s own mother had never done that.

Who knows what experiences she herself had gone through, that she had such a troubled relationship with her own femininity?

This incident was one of the most painful moments of Tina’s childhood. It also reflected the deeper dysfunction in her relationship with her parents. Their own shame, guilt, and ignorance had been projected onto Tina, causing deep emotional wounds that stayed with her into adulthood.

But as an adult, Tina didn’t just struggle with self-worth.

She had lost her connection to her femininity.

As she grew from a girl into a woman, she began to hide her femininity.

This was intensified by another traumatic experience at the age of seventeen, when she was sexually harassed by a young man in a nightclub. Once again, she felt helpless and exposed.

On a subconscious level, her femininity became something dangerous.

From that point on, she unconsciously feared her own womanhood and sexuality.

This explains why Tina underwent three breast reduction surgeries—not out of vanity, but to hide her femininity, to avoid being seen, to avoid being “discovered”… just as her parents had once discovered her secret under the bed.

Her femininity had become associated not only with fear, but also with deep feelings of guilt and shame.

It had become something threatening.

It also explains why she could be in a relationship with a man—but not truly allow closeness.

Deep within her, there was a belief that it was wrong to be a woman.

Because if she truly allowed herself to be one, the “secret” would surface again. The shame would return. People would judge her.

These are unconscious processes—but they can have immense power over us.

So much power that a person might even undergo unnecessary surgeries just to avoid facing them.

During the healing session, as all of this emerged from Tina’s subconscious into her conscious awareness, she finally understood the true root of her struggles.

And in that moment, she began to heal herself.

At the end of the session, I simply supported her in reconnecting with her inner child—helping her establish a strong, loving bond that she could carry with her from that day forward.

Today, Tina is a confident woman who embraces and values her femininity and sexuality.

Isn’t that beautiful?

Marco Hennings – Biography
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When the Night Becomes the Enemy – Fear of Falling Asleep

Fear of falling asleep affects countless people worldwide. Nighttime anxiety can trigger racing thoughts, tension, and stress, often rooted in subconscious patterns or past experiences. Understanding these underlying causes is the first step toward healing and reclaiming restful, peaceful nights.

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Fear of Falling Asleep: Understanding Nighttime Anxiety & Healing

A young woman, around 29 years old, came to me for a healing session. Let’s call her Julia.

Julia told me that she had suffered from severe compulsions and anxieties for many years. She explained that before going to bed, she had to perform several rituals. She would check every corner of her room, under the bed, in the closet, and even search other rooms. Only when she was completely sure that no one was hiding anywhere did she allow herself to go to bed.

Even when she knew her apartment was empty, a strong fear would overcome her. Sometimes it escalated into full-blown panic attacks, and she would tremble, paralyzed under the covers. Sleep was almost impossible. Eventually, she would fall asleep, but the stress before every night left deep emotional scars.

Soon, Julia developed avoidance strategies to try to get a calmer night. One of them was spending an excessive amount of time brushing her teeth to delay going to bed. Another was to spend as much time as possible staying over at friends’ homes or inviting friends to stay with her. Her third strategy was to cling closely to her boyfriend, wanting to be with him as much as possible—which eventually put strain on the relationship.

Of course, these strategies didn’t always work, and she still had to sleep alone sometimes. Julia began psychotherapy, but talk therapy did not bring relief.

Through an acquaintance, she learned about me, and in her desperation, she finally turned to me—a spiritual healer. She admitted that normally, she would never have gone to someone like me, but because her acquaintance had spoken so highly of my work, she decided to give it a try. I smiled, understanding that many people hold prejudices against healers and only turn to them in moments of extreme need. I didn’t take offense; I understood completely, as I myself had once dismissed spiritual healing as nonsense. But that’s another story.

I asked Julia what she believed would happen if she didn’t perform her pre-sleep rituals and when these fears had first appeared.

She explained that she feared someone might be there to harm her—perhaps something like “the boogeyman.” She couldn’t remember exactly when it had started, but it must have been at the beginning of puberty.

Since fears like this don’t simply arise from nowhere, but have a cause, I asked if she might have experienced something distressing as a child.

“Yes,” she said. “There was something that still affects me to this day.”

She recounted that as a young girl, she was walking home with a classmate when a teenage boy on a bicycle cut her off from behind. He turned back, shoved Julia into a bush, attacked her, and groped her. Her classmate ran away screaming for help. Julia fought back fiercely, which caused the boy to release her and flee on his bike.

Julia remembered the incident vividly. Her mother arrived, the police were informed, but the perpetrator was never identified. Life seemed to continue as normal after that. She never saw the boy again.

I asked if her parents had talked to her about the incident. She said they didn’t want to “make a big deal” of it and that no discussion had taken place.

Now much of it made sense to me. I understood why, many years later, Julia suffered from these anxieties and compulsive behaviors.

We began the healing session. I stood beside Julia, inviting her into my energy field, and spoke calming words to allow her subconscious to take the lead. Shortly afterward, Julia re-experienced the incident—but this time in a protected space, with the opportunity to release the shock she had carried all these years.

Her body began to move back and forth, tears streaming down her face. I asked what she perceived, and she explained that the scene was playing out again in her mind. She described the incident in detail, and I encouraged her to release the shock. (I use a specific technique for this, which I cannot fully explain here; I teach it in my seminars.)

Julia’s body curled and shook, and she cried intensely—a sign that the shock was releasing. It seemed as if the trauma was leaving her body. I supported her with gentle words until the first wave passed. A second wave followed, weaker than the first, and I waited until it subsided. Finally, a smile appeared on Julia’s face, and her body calmed and stabilized.

I asked how she felt.
“Much better. I feel truly relieved,” she replied.

I then gave her the opportunity to make inner peace with the perpetrator and mentally return the pain he had caused her. This allowed Julia to release the guilt and fear she had carried all those years. In her mind, she embraced the “little Julia” and brought her from the past into her heart—into the here and now.

We concluded the session and discussed the experience. I explained that she had suffered a trauma. Because she could neither process the shock physically nor talk about it at the time, the memory had lodged in her subconscious.

At the onset of puberty, such repressed trauma can be reactivated. Julia’s subconscious sent out the old fear signals again because it has no sense of time—everything exists in the present for the subconscious.

Thus, the danger was not real or current, but old, unresolved fears, as if her inner self were saying: “Be careful. This must not happen again. Stay alert!”

I also explained that her symptoms resembled post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD). A war veteran, even years later, may see an enemy behind every bush, even though he is safely back home. Here, too, the subconscious remained trapped in the past, sending warning signals to prevent a repetition of the trauma.

Interestingly, Julia’s symptoms usually occurred before bedtime, although the attack had happened in broad daylight. I reasoned that in the bedroom we feel both safe and vulnerable; in sleep, we are particularly defenseless—much like children in threatening situations. This may explain why her anxieties appeared specifically at night.

During the healing session, Julia was able to resolve this old trauma in a protected environment and, with my guidance, release herself from it.

I asked her to call me a week later and report how she had been. When she did, I could hear in her voice that she was well.

“I am overjoyed, Marco. I am no longer afraid and fall asleep immediately—like a baby. Even when I am alone. I no longer have to perform rituals or search my apartment for the ‘boogeyman.’ It feels amazing to finally live freely. Thank you so very much!”

To this day, Julia is free of anxiety.

Marco Hennings – Biography
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The Cellar of Tears – Healing Trauma & Emotional Wounds

The Cellar of Tears” is a symbolic journey through hidden emotional wounds and past trauma. Many people carry subconscious pain that affects behaviour and emotional wellbeing. By exploring these hidden layers, real healing and inner transformation become possible.

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The Story Behind “The Cellar of Tears

The next case story is meant to illustrate the power our emotions have and the influence they can actually exert on our health.

One of my healing students (let’s call her Helga) complained that she had recently developed a bloated stomach. In addition, she had suddenly begun experiencing pain in the sole of her foot from one day to the next. After several days without improvement, she consulted her general practitioner.

As soon as Helga described her symptoms, the doctor suspected gout. Blood tests confirmed the assumption: Helga’s uric acid levels were significantly elevated. All the symptoms clearly pointed to gout.

However, because Helga had learned during her healer training with me that most illnesses have an unconscious cause, she came to see me to find out whether there might be an emotional root behind it.

As usual, I first asked when exactly everything had begun. Helga told me that it had started shortly after her wedding. She remembered returning from her honeymoon with her newly married husband. When they opened the mailbox, they were overwhelmed by the large number of congratulatory letters they had received.

Helga explained that she and her husband were incredibly happy when they returned from their honeymoon, and she was delighted by all the letters from friends and relatives.

But then she opened a letter from her stepmother—and all those feelings of happiness vanished instantly.

Her stepmother was not pleased about Helga’s new marriage and informed her, in a very unfriendly tone, that she would no longer belong to the family.

Helga said that from that moment on she couldn’t stop thinking about her stepmother and constantly felt guilty.

Almost like obsessive thoughts.

That was when everything began. Shortly afterward, her stomach became bloated. But something else also changed: she suddenly had difficulty urinating. Before that, everything had worked perfectly, but now it felt as if the “valve” was no longer opening properly and something was being held back.

This explained the elevated uric acid levels.

So we had identified the trigger—but the underlying cause was still missing.

Recognizing Hidden Wounds

Now my detective work began.

I asked Helga to stand up and allowed my energy to flow into her. Within a few moments, she slipped into a light trance. I then instructed her subconscious to show us the true cause of her problem.

Helga’s voice and posture changed, and I suddenly had the feeling that a little girl was standing in front of me instead of a 55-year-old woman.

Her subconscious was working at full speed and led us far back into the past.

Helga saw herself as a small child—perhaps five years old—and began describing the surroundings she found herself in.

Speaking with a childlike voice, she told me that she was playing alone on the terrace in front of her parents’ house. The atmosphere felt bleak, and Helga did not feel comfortable.

I asked if anyone else was there.

She replied that only her mother was inside the house.

I asked if it was her stepmother, but she clarified that it was her biological mother.

Then Helga’s mood changed, and small tears rolled down her face.

“Why are you crying?” I asked.

“Mommy is angry with me,” Helga replied.

“But why is she angry with you?”

“I don’t know. Something bad is always about to happen. I’m scared. I don’t want to go into the house.”

I asked Helga’s adult self to join the situation in order to support the little girl.

The adult Helga took her inner child by the hand and led her through the door into the house.

Once inside, Helga saw a dark cellar door in her mind’s eye.

“There is that horrible cellar,” she said.

Gently I asked what was in the cellar.

Suddenly Helga broke down crying and shouted:

“Me! I am in the cellar!”

After a while Helga explained that her mother would often beat her with a wooden cooking spoon whenever she had supposedly done something wrong. Sometimes the beatings only stopped when Helga wet herself.

Only then would her mother stop.

As an additional punishment, Helga was locked in the dark cellar of the house and not allowed to leave. Sometimes for hours, sometimes even for days.

These cellar punishments became more frequent when Helga’s mother had a lover and wanted the little girl out of the way.

“I understand,” I replied with deep compassion and surrounded Helga with the full energy of unconditional love.

She began to cry more intensely and bent forward as if in pain. All the shock energy from the past was now releasing from her subconscious.

When that wave passed, she told me that she now felt an intense anger inside her.

“Oh, I am so angry!”

This was a good sign. The shock and trauma energy had suppressed and hidden these feelings of anger for many years.

I encouraged her to express this anger freely.

Because Helga was a gentle person who never wanted to harm anyone—and had been raised to always be nice—she initially found it difficult to give in to the impulse.

So I encouraged her gently:

“You are innocent in what happened to you. It is your right to free yourself from it. You can’t do anything wrong now, and you never did anything wrong. Stop fighting it. Just let it go.”

And Helga screamed.

These are the moments, dear reader, when I am very grateful to work in a practice with extremely thick walls.

When years of suppressed anger finally release, it is almost as if someone has thrown an energetic hand grenade into the room.

There is quite a bang.

After that emotional explosion, the room was filled with a flood of colorful swear words that I will spare you here. Helga raged furiously:

“How could you dare treat such a small child like that?!”

This went on for several minutes.

When the waves of anger subsided, Helga relaxed, and a smile appeared on her face.

“How do you feel now?” I asked.

“So relieved, Marco!”

Then I asked Helga to free the little Helga from the cellar and bring her into the present moment.

(Of course, this process is much more complex than I can describe here. I cannot explain these techniques in detail because I want to prevent untrained people from attempting to work with traumatized individuals based only on descriptions in a book.)

After the healing session, Helga told me that one day her father had gained custody and taken her to live with him. He had a new partner—the stepmother mentioned earlier—who raised her from then on.

Although the physical violence stopped, Helga experienced psychological abuse. The message was always the same:

“You will only be loved if you do exactly what we expect of you. Be nice.”

Helga moved out very early to escape this pressure and became independent at a young age. She moved from southern Germany to the far north, married, and had a son.

Her family continued to make it clear that she never truly belonged.

No matter what she did, she was rejected.

When her father died, Helga felt responsible for her stepmother and tried to maintain contact. She was never thanked. Instead, attempts were constantly made to make her feel guilty in order to control her.

Eventually Helga began freeing herself from this pattern—but the guilt still lingered deep inside her.

After the healing session I asked her how she felt.

She smiled broadly.

“I’m exhausted—but in a good way,” she said.

She also reported a strong energetic sensation flowing through her legs and down into her feet.

“It feels like bubbling,” she said fascinated. “Is that normal?”

“That’s actually a very good sign,” I replied.

“The energy that was stuck is now flowing properly through your body again. Symbolically, you had still been trapped in that cellar all these years. That is why the gout symptoms appeared in your foot—unconsciously, you were still stuck in that terrible place.”

Her bloated stomach had also been a sign that energy could no longer flow properly below the hips.

The problem with urination should now resolve as well.

When she had been beaten as a child, her subconscious learned that the beatings stopped once she wet herself.

So over time she wet herself faster because her subconscious was trying to protect her from the blows.

When she later received the letter from her stepmother, her subconscious recognized the same “mother theme” and attempted to react the same way.

As an adult, she had unconsciously resisted this impulse—which created tension and physical symptoms.

“That’s why I had trouble urinating?” Helga exclaimed. “That’s incredible!”

“Exactly,” I replied.

“As a child you were helpless against the forces of your subconscious. Today, as an adult, it must find other ways to signal that something is wrong.”

It is both frightening and fascinating when we realize how much power the subconscious mind actually has over our health.

About a week later Helga called me.

“I’m doing very well, Marco,” she said happily.

“The energy in my legs stopped in the evening, and the pain in my foot is gone. My stomach swelling has also disappeared.”

She also told me that the day after the healing session she had passed very dark urine and that urination had returned to normal.

“I can sleep well again,” she added. “I feel rested, balanced, and simply happy.”

Her smile practically radiated through the phone.

“Wonderful,” I said. “And what about the obsessive thoughts about your stepmother?”

“That’s the funny part,” Helga replied. “At first I didn’t even notice that I had stopped thinking about her. After about a week it suddenly occurred to me that she hadn’t crossed my mind at all.”

She laughed.

“It’s like tinnitus,” she continued. “If the ringing suddenly disappears after years, you don’t notice it immediately because you’re so used to it being there.”

We both smiled.

“It’s okay now, Marco,” she said. “I’m not angry with my stepmother anymore. I forgive her. I also forgive my mother and let it go. Finally, I am free from guilt and have decided not to be a victim anymore.”

Some weeks later I saw Helga again.

She was still doing wonderfully.

None of the symptoms had returned.

To this day, she remains symptom-free.

Marco Hennings – Biography
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